#HolaMami’s
Welcome to my first #MaMiMonday Series!
On here I will be sharing some of the #MamiStruggles or anything related to the Mami World!
On here I will be sharing some of the #MamiStruggles or anything related to the Mami World!
I am a full time single mom; I’ve spent the past 5 years
completely dedicated to my Cheeseball (my daughter) when I say full time it’s
because all I do is work and be with her 100% of the time, there is no going out, dropping her off with the mom so I can go eat, club, drink, shop none of that.
Lately the past few months I have been going through some
stuff, I don’t know if it’s safe to call it Depression perhaps?!! Now I know that word carries a very heavy weight on people, I often train my brain to not "Believe" on it and keep it moving, at least that's what I try.
My mood is easily dragged to the floor even if it’s
something minor, I feel like it's a huge deal, when in reality is nada!
There are days where I completely feel like I
just need at least one day or even if it's one afternoon to MY SELF, without knowing that people exist
(Have I mentioned I’m not much of a people person?)
well not that I’m not a people person is just that I get easily aggravated by the way humans act sometimes and I have this thing where my facial expressions are very expressive lol... back to the story, there have been days when I’ve already asked my mom to watch my daughter so I can at least have a few hours to myself, I’ve been one click away from booking a flight even if it’s for a day and go somewhere where I don’t know anyone so I can just re charge without any worries but I just can't do it.
The thing is that I don’t really feel like being alone either I am so used to be with my daughter, or doing the usual that when I am alone I feel more anxious?! I don’t know it’s weird and makes no sense whatsoever.
I don't even know if it's safe to call it panic attacks, it's like a indescribable feeling.
I often get asked if I don't go out with my girlfriends or anything like that and the response is no, I don't, that is something I really don't enjoy much either. I've noticed my self wanting to sleep away what I have been feeling and it's not a good idea either but I really don't know how I can stop it.
Has anyone been dealing or feeling this way? If so what is some advice you can provide? How are you handling this feelings?
well not that I’m not a people person is just that I get easily aggravated by the way humans act sometimes and I have this thing where my facial expressions are very expressive lol... back to the story, there have been days when I’ve already asked my mom to watch my daughter so I can at least have a few hours to myself, I’ve been one click away from booking a flight even if it’s for a day and go somewhere where I don’t know anyone so I can just re charge without any worries but I just can't do it.
The thing is that I don’t really feel like being alone either I am so used to be with my daughter, or doing the usual that when I am alone I feel more anxious?! I don’t know it’s weird and makes no sense whatsoever.
I don't even know if it's safe to call it panic attacks, it's like a indescribable feeling.
I often get asked if I don't go out with my girlfriends or anything like that and the response is no, I don't, that is something I really don't enjoy much either. I've noticed my self wanting to sleep away what I have been feeling and it's not a good idea either but I really don't know how I can stop it.
Has anyone been dealing or feeling this way? If so what is some advice you can provide? How are you handling this feelings?
Love Always,
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